My expression of optimism changed when my oncologist revealed the pathology report showed a 5% immature teratoma; that explained other dormant cells in my body that had a possibility of transforming to cancer. He, being highly credible in this field, recommended mild chemotherapy, which in this case was carboplatin. It was difficult to accept even to the point of compromising an option out. His reasons were that I had parental history of cancer, I was young and that my teratoma was of the congenital type. 

I explained why I could not take the therapy. I could not afford to have my body physically weakened and functioning lesser than normal. In addition, taking a couple more months of medical leave might result in a job-loss. In my own medical experience as a pharmaceutical sales specialist, I knew that the drug had a list of side effects attached such as delayed memory reactions, lethargy, decreased cell activity and subsequently, my overall immunity.

I resorted to a consultation with Dr. Peter Blake in London, U.K, which was recommended by my brother's uni-mate. Before the consultation I prayed that the Lord would confirm whether He approved of this, which would spiritually, physically and mentally affect me. How do these three elements relate? You see, when your cells are being depleted, good cells like the endorphins (happy and joyful cells) will also be reduced. After the visit, I peacefully accepted and agreed that chemotherapy was vital in the total preventive treatment.

Every morning, at 5-6 a/m/, the Holy Spirit will awaken me and pour forth His divine anointing. His promises are found in 1 peter 3:14,15. "But even if you should suffer for righteousness sake, you are blessed. And do not be afraid of their threats, nor be troubled. Sanctify the lord God in your hearts, and always be ready to give defense to everyone who asks you a reason for the hope that is in you, with meekness and fear." 

All I knew was to trust in the Lord and a seed of faith like a mustard seed would be sufficient. Back in Malaysia, the Convenators' zone prayed fervently for me during individual meetings, gatherings and the women's morning meetings. The power of prayer kept me going and the side effects were not evident. I constantly sang worship songs and prayed that the Lord will generate my cells at a higher speed and to provide supernatural immunity. Remarkably, my dance during the New Year Celebration termed 'Revival' has proven that the Holy Spirit is dominating my body, and enabling me to perform for His glory. Mindfully, it was still the initial stage of my chemotherapy when I went on choreographing and practicing my dance steps for hours, day and night, while still doing my daily work.

During this period I claimed God's promise in 1 Deuteronomy 1:30.
"The Lord your God, who goes before you, He will fight for you, according to all He did for you in Egypt before your eyes, and in the wilderness where you saw how the Lord your God carried you, as a man carries his son, in all the way that you went until you came to this place!"

He truly expressed his protection and continuous 'agape love' throughout my six courses of chemotherapy intravenously up till the end of March 2001. Although the side effects lingered for about 6 months, my Jehovah Jireh has been supplying me with the necessary spiritual food and physical ability to recuperate beyond normal. My looks exuberate overflowing joy than most people according to my friends, colleagues and clients. The reason is simply because I'm excited to live for my Lord and to continue in His purposes for me. Praise Him!

By Celina Chia
Shepherd of Convenators 11

(works have been edited to fit space and clarity)

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